Thursday, December 16, 2010

Thick Skin

Today, we took Jon a Sonic drink while he was at work and Buddy was really excited because he loves his Daddy.  When Buddy wasn't able to get out of the car and when he realized Daddy wasn't following us home, he said to me, "I don't want you, I want Daddy".  Not a huge deal and understandable since I am home all day with him.  Then in an atypical fashion, Buddy stated very matter-a-factly "I don't love you".  It pierced my heart at first until I realized that of course he does, he was just looking for my reaction.   He kept repeating over and over "I don't love you, I don't want you!"

I turned around as best I could while driving and said "Buddy you may not love Mommy right now but Mommy will always love you."  Even as I was getting him out of the car, Buddy was twisting and pulling away from me.  And it hit me, we do this to God all the time.  How can we as humans say He doesn't exist or that we don't love Him?  God is our Creator!  He sent Jesus to earth for the sole purpose to be our way to Heaven.  John 3:16 states "For God so loved the world that He gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life". 

This gave me a small glimpse of how God must feel when people reject Him.  He loves us so completely even when we don't love Him in return.  It was a great reminder for me to just tell God tonight how much I love Him and how I am so grateful for Jesus.

Buddy did warm back up tonight though.  I went to a Women's Event at church and when I got home, he gave me a huge hug and kiss and told me "I love you Mommy!"  Sweetest words ever!


  1. I have learned more about the father heart of God since having a baby than I had in my entire life until G was born. It is really amazing.